I’m getting slightly fed up with people asking me about my trip, or ‘holiday’ as it is oft referred as. I suppose that whilst it is a holiday, I feel better calling it a ‘trip’; ‘trip’ has less connotations of self indulgence – since I struggle with … Continue reading →
I had wanted to have a gnarly pumpkin glowing in my windowsill by now to celebrate Halloween (last years was, I’m ashamed to admit, carved slightly drunk (must locate pic to post, I was pretty proud!), but instead have been all a-flu-ey after having my first round of jabs and the pumpkin carving fell by the wayside whilst I rekindled a relationship with tomato soup.
It’s a pain in the ass that the expat travels of my ‘yoof’ were so long ago and that my jabs from those days are way out of date now (most annoyingly because they are so freaking expensive now and require multiple shots each). One thing’s for sure though: I will NOT be taking Lariam malaria tabs :”Rare but serious neuropsychiatric problems have been associated with its use.”….”milder events (e.g., dizziness, headache, insomnia, and vivid dreams) in up to 25%” — THIS SHIT IS DANGEROUS: I took Lariam 2 winters running whilst my father was posted in Warri, Nigeria in the mid 90’s. By the 3rd year I knew something was afoot; in short, I was turning in to a psycho with hideous dreams on an almost nightly basis that had me frightened to go to sleep at night.
Malarone, I will pay you any money for no side affects please!!!
Lo, I have ventured off track; I was wishing you a Happy Halloween; I’ll leave you with a shot of my beloved niece who I’ve no doubt it the cutest kid in her nursery (not to mention SW London and beyond..).
I’ve just calculated that I’ve only 77 sleeps before I leave the UK for the unknown. HOLY COW! I’ve not been away from home for longer than 2 weeks in about 15 years, and the thought somehow terrifies me. Leaving my lovely flat, friends and family and the routine of LIFE is frightening for me, not least because I’ll have finished up at work (that one’s a 61 day countdown!) and won’t know where my next pennies are coming from. Booking the ticket was the biggest hurdle of all though, and I’ll admit to having a 3 second sob on the street after I’d done it; prior to this I’d spent weeks lying awake wondering whether I’m crazy to leave the comfort of my superking for dank hostels, mosquito nets and washing my pants in the sink (hopefully it won’t be this bad, but I’ve yet to gage the exact budget vs comfort level that I’ll be angling for: I guess this is something I’ll work out as I go along). But HELLO, no tube, NO MORE TIGHTS, HALLELUJAH! and no sitting at this GODFORSAKEN desk, hating it and bored out of my skull and wondering if I’ll ever feel more excited about life (readers: I will!)
I’m VERY excited (not to mention LUCKY) to be going to visit good friends (the VERY BEST ones, in fact) at the start and end points of my trip, and am not actually going to be away for that long — I’m hoping I’m so gung-ho about what I see and do that it will be a GIVEN that I’ll extend my trip – but who knows, I’ll maybe have had enough and miss everyone too much to stay away; plus, I’m leaving mere weeks ahead of my sister’s first born’s due date, something that’s been tearing me up since she told me she was expecting, and I’m worried about how I’ll feel not being around for the occaision, given how stoked I was when my brother’s little poppet arrived on the scene earlier this year. Thankfully my sister has been amazing at encouraging me to go, and reassuring me that I’ll be sure to get my share of babysitting once I’m back! I am BLESSED to have amazing and supportive siblings and parents. It will be weird and upsetting not having them all on my doorstep > how do you cuddle a newborn on Skype? 😦
For now though, fun times ahead to loosely plan the barebones of my trip. I totally lucked out with a good friend helping me out with much of the kit I’ll need – Hannah (and James), you superstar: you’ve saved me a fortune and also given me a whole lot of encouragement to FREEFALL (I promise I’ll try!). The next pressing issues are jabs (OUCH – both financially and physically..) and technology requirement decisions (camera, phone/tablet) to aid me on my way and snap me up some happy memories.
SIDE NOTE : Stop the press, WordPress! : I’m still trying to work out what I’m doing in this blogosphere: do I really want to shout about everything I’m up to or is this sort of thing best left shared in person with my nearest and dearest? I’ve not yet told friends or family this site name, and for now I’m just testing my own waters, since I currently never write anything that isn’t WORK or admin (or thank-you letters! such good manners!) – in short, my creativity is shot to pieces, and I’m working out if I’m any good at this and whether it’s something I enjoy. I read a lot of blogs, many of them American (so many inspirational women blogging out there!), so one thing I’m wary about is their influence on how I’ll write. Hopefully it’ll just come across as ME.
I’ve never written anything that’s been publicly read before, so this is somewhat daunting, to say the least; I’m hoping this will be a space where I can (b)log some new adventures after I fall out of the rat race (counting the days!).
I hanker after the familiar, and find comfort and safety in the cushion of friendships and family – and yet, I yearn to seek out new experiences, memories, adventures, and re-kindle the creativity that has so long been buried amongst spreadsheets and fear of failure – so this will be a whole new challenge for me.
I hope you enjoy sharing the journey with me. I’m starting to miss you all already.